First week down.

 

 Can't believe that the first week of TNS is over. :(

THAT WAS JUST TOO FAST. I was always looking forward to it, and now.... I have 4 nights left.

Awwwwwww. Back to my homeeee tonight and over the weekend. With a very bad sore throat. :(

Like I went to the doctors and he said it was badly inflamed, and I shouldn't party over the weekend.

L-O-L. He read my mind.. Or my phone. :B

Anyway, I'm just really tired. :<

Half way through the stay became a mess though. :(

Idk, it's just hard giving second chances for me. Maybe.

Or i'm just the person that cannot stand being lied to.

It hurts me all the time thinking about it. The paranoid thoughts run around, thinking about the other possible things I could've been lied about. *heart shatters*

I just.. dont understand why people lie. They always say its because they're scared to hurt you. BUT IF THEY LOVE YOU, why must they hurt you? Why do they even get the idea of doing something to hurt you. YOU KNEW IT WAS GONNA HURT ME, YET THAT DIDN'T STOP YOU. Get my point?

For me, it's not the fear. I'm just not worth it enough for the truth I guess. 

I know i've done mistakes. But most of these involved other people that gave me NO CHOICE.

Like if I promise to take care of myself going home, and someone rapes me.

Yeah I promised i'd take extra care, but if someone was there with a knife and rapes me, WHO'S AT FAULT NOW?

My mind's just in a mess. Up to now. :(

Although every thing's better already.

I'm glad it is though. I hate ignorance, and heart breaks.

I shall get some rest cause the medicine's stronggggggggggg.

PLUS WORK TOMORROW!!

Money money money yeah~

Don't get me wrong though. I still you with all my heart. With everything. <3
I just became more scared about the future now. That's all.